Hi Girlfriends! How are you? It’s been an exciting time these last few weeks and I’m THRILLED to finally fill you in on the change…
As you may or may not have known, 2016 was one of THE hardest years of my life. To say it was a struggle would be a huge understatement. I returned to work after 13 glorious months on maternity leave with our second son, JJ. After being home with both of our boys, hardly sleeping, mostly breastfeeding, you would think that jumping back into the workflow would be a welcome change. It. Was. Not. I cried almost daily having to leave them to commute over two hours from the suburbs into Downtown Toronto on the train, to spend 8 hours in a cubicle working away at a job that I had Z E R O passion for. Looking back, it’s no wonder I was miserable: I was in a sleepless fog for the first five months, as I was still nursing and the baby hadn’t learned to sleep through the night yet. I was learning how to be in the working world again while trying to manage our family life at the same time. I was now leaving not one but TWO babies behind. I was exhausted and deeply unhappy. To make matters worse, I didn’t have the best working relationship with my boss. She was less than understanding about my situation AND completely unaware of just how badly I was struggling. The only things holding me together were my Boys and my Beachbody business (much more to come about this in upcoming posts).
Make That Change!
Admittedly, I stayed in that soul-sucking job for much longer than I should have. I ignored the signs, including my gut instincts, and trudged through hoping that things would just “get better”. They didn’t. And, in fact, they got much worse! Like other parents, I was caught between a rock and a hard place – on the one hand, I needed to work (the mortgage and bills still needed to get paid)…But on the other, I hated my worklife and was ready to quit and walk out at a moments notice. I was that miserable. I knew deep down things were NOT going to improve. So, I made a choice: I needed to make a change. So I started the arduous task of job hunting. U G H! I knew I had to find a job closer to home, so that I could enjoy my little boys while they were still little, and to find work and people that I enjoyed again…It took some time, a lot of patience and some disappointment, but in the end I am over the moon with the new change. I found a job I love, in a completely new field, with a team of motivated (and NICE) people! The BEST part is, I have more TIME: I can sit down and have breakfast with the boys EVERY morning AND drop off Lil Man at school. And yes, Dori, I savour every single moment of it!
I truly appreciate the struggle I went through and the unhappiness that clouded most of last year because I enjoy this time SO MUCH MORE. In the end, I had to trust the timing of my life, fight through the bad days to get to the better ones. And these days are so much sweeter!