On this day, October 15, we remember all the Babies lost in pregnancy or in infancy. 1 in 4 women will experience pregnancy loss – I am that 1 in 4; times two. Despite the roller coaster of emotions associated with this kind of loss, I have felt at ease sharing my miscarriage experiences. For some reason, saying the words out loud, “I had a miscarriage”, helped me through the grief.
Between 2011 and 2014, we struggled with unexplained secondary infertility. After seeking out Specialists, receiving treatment and undergoing several procedures, I became pregnant in early 2013. Sadly, at 9 weeks pregnant, I suffered a miscarriage. We were devastated to say the least. It would take another year, more infertility treatments and another procedure before I would become pregnant again. This time, we were expecting TWINS! We were shocked and excited, but sadly that excitement would soon turn to heartbreak yet again…Because at 9 weeks, we lost one of the twins. The remainder of my pregnancy was wracked with absolute and complete FEAR that I would miscarry my baby. On November 13, 2014, I delivered another healthy baby boy. He was 13 days early AND, coincidentally, November 13 was my due date for the baby I had miscarried the year before. Miracles DO happen!
To my 2 Angels in heaven, you live forever in my heart, and I remember you not only today, but every single day.
To all of those who have loved and lost a baby, you are not alone. I stand with you in remembrance, but most importantly, in Love.
With love and support,